OCT '24

[katsusho]

im backkk

updates | movies | shows | books | fics | music

updates

1. driving & cars
i have finally opened a driving account and have been taking driving lessons!! yay!! during my first driving theory lesson (they are held on zoom), my computer decided to blue screen on me, losing me a good 15 minutes of lesson. :( most of the material is available online, but the whole reason i decided to take this online course in the first place is for someone to explain the important bits of driving instead of looking at a book with no idea where to start... similarly, i had forgotten that i had booked a lesson on sunday so :( ive re-booked the session, and thats on me, but thats money down the drain :(( anywayss this is a start to my initial d era! (who am i kidding, im a passenger princess to my core)

on a more light-hearted note, this has suddenly sparked an interest in cars (just to look at, not to buy) and have discovered some cars where in some crazy alternate universe where im part of the 1.0% and am able to afford these cars, i would consider. (however my interest is very shallow, i have no idea about independant rear suspension or performance or whatever, this is simply based off looks.)
- c7/c8 something corvette... its just so slick and nice to look at
- (not to own jsut to look at) chevy camaro.. in no universe would i want it because its more bulkier compared to others (but it is more comfortable); its just a neat looking car and i want a friend so i have a camaro to my corvette hehe
- mc laren 720s?
- moving on to more classic cars, the chevy impala is gorgeous,, i saw a baby pink impala on tiktok and what can i say, thats a sweet ride
- 65 mustang ,, and im not even sure if its available in this colour but i think itll look fantastic in emerald green

2. job
so, in case you dont know, im currently studying fashion retail and merchandising for my tertiary education, and because of that my mother persuaded me to get a retail job under a local fashion brand. she said itll give me experience, but the thing is, the experience has very little to do with my course, (because my course prepares me to be the one managing a business, not the one assisting customers and all that.) but i can admit the slight relevance might help in portfolios and resumes later on, but the thing is, it is simply not enough for it to be taking up so my of my break. sure, it pays ok, but im a thrifty person in general, so im in no rush to get money, most will be going in my savings. and ive also wanted this break for me to work on my artwork and try to make money off that, whether its commissions or what not, but now that the job practically took up half of my holiday and i have a week left till school starts and i have so little time to accomplish so much things...

3. art slump
on that note, i havent been drawing for so long, due to school and work, everything i produce looks ugly. this ultimately makes me unmotivated. and i know i should be doing art studies and workouts, but because i have only one week left before school, and my friend's birthday celebration is the coming sunday, i just feel so overwhelmed i don't feel like drawing, even though i want her to have a good present, especially since ive been close with her for 6 years, i want something to show for it :,(. i think ill try doing random october prompts once school starts so i can have the practice.

movies

1. look back
i watched this film with my friends, and i want to draw. (before my job & slump) as i watched the film, i realised i have not filled up that many sketchbooks, i dont think, because most of my books are either doodles or random writing, and i've always drawn digitally anyways. but i feel like my friends (who are also aspiring artists) have been drawing so much more than me.... i think my new resolution is to draw and post and do whatever, no matter how ugly. but yeah, i teared up at the film, it had a bittersweet ending. i do really want to draw.

2. chungking express
my first wong kar-wai film... getting into it i had no idea of the genre, so i was unaware that it was less-dramatic than what i expected it to be. it's an alright film, but i do think the cinematography really carried most of the film with its beautiful colour-grading. i can see the heavy artistic influence that this film had for ooo's 'begin' (be #1) mv ^^

3. mississippi masala
nice, i had to grab tissues for this. denzel washington and sarita choudhury were just sooo pretty in this, and this film is so interesting overall, because you never really see a interracial relationship between non-white partners. its a beautiful film, there is so many beautiful and important quotes that tumblr can screen-cap.

 

shows

1. grian's hermitcraft season 6
yes, this is the series that ultimately took up most of my time. did i regret it? hm. i do love the nostalgia that this gave me though, a lot of parts that i've simply forgotten, but there's some that made me excited to watch. i'm not sure whether i should watch season by season, especially if each season can be as long as 70+ eps (season 7) and i have yet to catch up till season 10. i'll might be missing out on good moments, but what i can see so far, its pretty mundane (to me) so i'm not sure whether it's worth watching everything. however, on a similar vein, i'm interested in grian lore. it's so filled with angst, but its lore on one player (grian) across so many smps and dramas (namely yhs & evosmp & lifeseries) that,, ill simply watch on the side, i suppose.

books

 

1.out by natsuo kirino
first completed book of 2024!! its an engaging book, i like it overall, even if others might have differing ideas about the ending. i feel so proud that i've completed a 500 page book in what, two or one month(s)? honestly it didnt feel like 500 pages, but it could be possible that i possibly accidently skipped a section of this book without realising.

2. these violent delights
dropped. not because i hate it or anything, but its been so highly rated i have a feeling i might feel like its overrated if i jumped into it now. following that note, i should really stop searching up books and reading reviews of it when im already interested, because one negative comment might influence and cloud my mind to truly experience the book. i want to enjoy a story on my own. when i start reading it, it was very dark academia, but i truly cant connect with the characters yet, maybe because i think theyre a tad bit pretentious... i have a feeling this is a book ill need more time to truly immerse and commit to the story and characters

oct - dec tbr:
i have so many books i want to start on!! here are some that i want to complete, or at least try out
- murder most unladylike
- vernon subutex 1
- wednesday's child
- crash by j.g. ballard

if you're interested in the rest of my tbr or reviews, check out my storygraph

 

 

fics

1. love comes close by daelos
a good yutae andriod x human fic. it's been a while since its been bookmarked (jul?) so i do forget the details but i do think its a good fulfilling slowburn with a healthy amount of angst (actually that might be debatable) .. <3

2. you became my crown by dreamchase
this fic has been lingering in my skull ever since i read it. its a more mythical take on a classic angel demon au. txt soobin and yeonjun.

3. beautiful girl, you keep on rocking my world by dreamtogether
good hot m/f chenji/jichen smut... yeah..

4. YOUR BEST AMERICAN BOY by hatsuna

if you're ever looking for haikyuu fics, i highly suggest that you'd at least try out one of hatsuna's work. she's really recognised in the community and deservingly so. in your best american boy, i connected with sakusa a lot, especially with the language disconnect. similar to kiyoomi, i've never been good at my native language (mandarin chinese) and it has been a deep-rooted insecurity in my life, especially when i am at my job (with malaysians that are proficient in multiple languages) or in family reunions. the language disconnect largely affects my relationship with my grandparents, even when my paternal grandmother is one of the most important people in my life, considering she raised me, and i can't speak to her outside of a couple sentences.

 

 

music

- avenoir's entire discography is amazing.

 ps: i did not expect this much attention for this dw acc!! it was more meant for a hide-y hole and for me to place all my discarded scenes for ao3 fics!! i feel very welcome, even if i dont reply to everything!! <3