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updates
1. driving & cars
i have finally opened a driving account and have been taking driving lessons!! yay!! during my first driving theory lesson (they are held on zoom), my computer decided to blue screen on me, losing me a good 15 minutes of lesson. :( most of the material is available online, but the whole reason i decided to take this online course in the first place is for someone to explain the important bits of driving instead of looking at a book with no idea where to start... similarly, i had forgotten that i had booked a lesson on sunday so :( ive re-booked the session, and thats on me, but thats money down the drain :(( anywayss this is a start to my initial d era! (who am i kidding, im a passenger princess to my core)
on a more light-hearted note, this has suddenly sparked an interest in cars (just to look at, not to buy) and have discovered some cars where in some crazy alternate universe where im part of the 1.0% and am able to afford these cars, i would consider. (however my interest is very shallow, i have no idea about independant rear suspension or performance or whatever, this is simply based off looks.)
- c7/c8 something corvette... its just so slick and nice to look at
- (not to own jsut to look at) chevy camaro.. in no universe would i want it because its more bulkier compared to others (but it is more comfortable); its just a neat looking car and i want a friend so i have a camaro to my corvette hehe
- mc laren 720s?
- moving on to more classic cars, the chevy impala is gorgeous,, i saw a baby pink impala on tiktok and what can i say, thats a sweet ride
- 65 mustang ,, and im not even sure if its available in this colour but i think itll look fantastic in emerald green
2. job
so, in case you dont know, im currently studying fashion retail and merchandising for my tertiary education, and because of that my mother persuaded me to get a retail job under a local fashion brand. she said itll give me experience, but the thing is, the experience has very little to do with my course, (because my course prepares me to be the one managing a business, not the one assisting customers and all that.) but i can admit the slight relevance might help in portfolios and resumes later on, but the thing is, it is simply not enough for it to be taking up so my of my break. sure, it pays ok, but im a thrifty person in general, so im in no rush to get money, most will be going in my savings. and ive also wanted this break for me to work on my artwork and try to make money off that, whether its commissions or what not, but now that the job practically took up half of my holiday and i have a week left till school starts and i have so little time to accomplish so much things...
3. art slump
on that note, i havent been drawing for so long, due to school and work, everything i produce looks ugly. this ultimately makes me unmotivated. and i know i should be doing art studies and workouts, but because i have only one week left before school, and my friend's birthday celebration is the coming sunday, i just feel so overwhelmed i don't feel like drawing, even though i want her to have a good present, especially since ive been close with her for 6 years, i want something to show for it :,(. i think ill try doing random october prompts once school starts so i can have the practice.
movies
1. look back
i watched this film with my friends, and i want to draw. (before my job & slump) as i watched the film, i realised i have not filled up that many sketchbooks, i dont think, because most of my books are either doodles or random writing, and i've always drawn digitally anyways. but i feel like my friends (who are also aspiring artists) have been drawing so much more than me.... i think my new resolution is to draw and post and do whatever, no matter how ugly. but yeah, i teared up at the film, it had a bittersweet ending. i do really want to draw.
2. chungking express
my first wong kar-wai film... getting into it i had no idea of the genre, so i was unaware that it was less-dramatic than what i expected it to be. it's an alright film, but i do think the cinematography really carried most of the film with its beautiful colour-grading. i can see the heavy artistic influence that this film had for ooo's 'begin' (be #1) mv ^^
3. mississippi masala
nice, i had to grab tissues for this. denzel washington and sarita choudhury were just sooo pretty in this, and this film is so interesting overall, because you never really see a interracial relationship between non-white partners. its a beautiful film, there is so many beautiful and important quotes that tumblr can screen-cap.
shows
1. grian's hermitcraft season 6
yes, this is the series that ultimately took up most of my time. did i regret it? hm. i do love the nostalgia that this gave me though, a lot of parts that i've simply forgotten, but there's some that made me excited to watch. i'm not sure whether i should watch season by season, especially if each season can be as long as 70+ eps (season 7) and i have yet to catch up till season 10. i'll might be missing out on good moments, but what i can see so far, its pretty mundane (to me) so i'm not sure whether it's worth watching everything. however, on a similar vein, i'm interested in grian lore. it's so filled with angst, but its lore on one player (grian) across so many smps and dramas (namely yhs & evosmp & lifeseries) that,, ill simply watch on the side, i suppose.
yes, this is the series that ultimately took up most of my time. did i regret it? hm. i do love the nostalgia that this gave me though, a lot of parts that i've simply forgotten, but there's some that made me excited to watch. i'm not sure whether i should watch season by season, especially if each season can be as long as 70+ eps (season 7) and i have yet to catch up till season 10. i'll might be missing out on good moments, but what i can see so far, its pretty mundane (to me) so i'm not sure whether it's worth watching everything. however, on a similar vein, i'm interested in grian lore. it's so filled with angst, but its lore on one player (grian) across so many smps and dramas (namely yhs & evosmp & lifeseries) that,, ill simply watch on the side, i suppose.
books
1.out by natsuo kirino
first completed book of 2024!! its an engaging book, i like it overall, even if others might have differing ideas about the ending. i feel so proud that i've completed a 500 page book in what, two or one month(s)? honestly it didnt feel like 500 pages, but it could be possible that i possibly accidently skipped a section of this book without realising.
2. these violent delights
dropped. not because i hate it or anything, but its been so highly rated i have a feeling i might feel like its overrated if i jumped into it now. following that note, i should really stop searching up books and reading reviews of it when im already interested, because one negative comment might influence and cloud my mind to truly experience the book. i want to enjoy a story on my own. when i start reading it, it was very dark academia, but i truly cant connect with the characters yet, maybe because i think theyre a tad bit pretentious... i have a feeling this is a book ill need more time to truly immerse and commit to the story and characters
oct - dec tbr:
i have so many books i want to start on!! here are some that i want to complete, or at least try out
- murder most unladylike
- vernon subutex 1
- wednesday's child
- crash by j.g. ballard
if you're interested in the rest of my tbr or reviews, check out my storygraph
first completed book of 2024!! its an engaging book, i like it overall, even if others might have differing ideas about the ending. i feel so proud that i've completed a 500 page book in what, two or one month(s)? honestly it didnt feel like 500 pages, but it could be possible that i possibly accidently skipped a section of this book without realising.
2. these violent delights
dropped. not because i hate it or anything, but its been so highly rated i have a feeling i might feel like its overrated if i jumped into it now. following that note, i should really stop searching up books and reading reviews of it when im already interested, because one negative comment might influence and cloud my mind to truly experience the book. i want to enjoy a story on my own. when i start reading it, it was very dark academia, but i truly cant connect with the characters yet, maybe because i think theyre a tad bit pretentious... i have a feeling this is a book ill need more time to truly immerse and commit to the story and characters
oct - dec tbr:
i have so many books i want to start on!! here are some that i want to complete, or at least try out
- murder most unladylike
- vernon subutex 1
- wednesday's child
- crash by j.g. ballard
if you're interested in the rest of my tbr or reviews, check out my storygraph
fics
1. love comes close by daelos
a good yutae andriod x human fic. it's been a while since its been bookmarked (jul?) so i do forget the details but i do think its a good fulfilling slowburn with a healthy amount of angst (actually that might be debatable) .. <3
2. you became my crown by dreamchase
this fic has been lingering in my skull ever since i read it. its a more mythical take on a classic angel demon au. txt soobin and yeonjun.
3. beautiful girl, you keep on rocking my world by dreamtogether
good hot m/f chenji/jichen smut... yeah..
a good yutae andriod x human fic. it's been a while since its been bookmarked (jul?) so i do forget the details but i do think its a good fulfilling slowburn with a healthy amount of angst (actually that might be debatable) .. <3
2. you became my crown by dreamchase
this fic has been lingering in my skull ever since i read it. its a more mythical take on a classic angel demon au. txt soobin and yeonjun.
3. beautiful girl, you keep on rocking my world by dreamtogether
good hot m/f chenji/jichen smut... yeah..
4. YOUR BEST AMERICAN BOY by
if you're ever looking for haikyuu fics, i highly suggest that you'd at least try out one of hatsuna's work. she's really recognised in the community and deservingly so. in your best american boy, i connected with sakusa a lot, especially with the language disconnect. similar to kiyoomi, i've never been good at my native language (mandarin chinese) and it has been a deep-rooted insecurity in my life, especially when i am at my job (with malaysians that are proficient in multiple languages) or in family reunions. the language disconnect largely affects my relationship with my grandparents, even when my paternal grandmother is one of the most important people in my life, considering she raised me, and i can't speak to her outside of a couple sentences.- avenoir's entire discography is amazing.
ps: i did not expect this much attention for this dw acc!! it was more meant for a hide-y hole and for me to place all my discarded scenes for ao3 fics!! i feel very welcome, even if i dont reply to everything!! <3
rpf recs: '24
Jun. 9th, 2024 01:08 pma list of rpf recs from jan - may '24.
1. somewhere in the world it's five o'clock by moonseul for prosaics
1. somewhere in the world it's five o'clock by moonseul for prosaics
Zhong Chenle. Twenty-five. The first Chinese astronaut to go to space. Also the first to sneak a corned beef sandwich in his pressure suit pocket, which could have very well made him the last Chinese astronaut in space, but Jisung knew it wouldn’t be the case.Zhong Chenle just had a way with people.
just beautiful, intricate writing with beautiful visuals.
2. bloodletting by ouchsolohot vampirism. the tension of Jisung's feeding is amazing.
3. new blogpost! by lovertonic
2. bloodletting by ouchsolo
From the moment Chenle stepped through the door, Jisung has been very aware of the blood, the smell of copper so gratifying and deep to his senses, but its not until this very second that Jisung can’t ignore it. He feels Chenle’s pulse as if it is his own, hears every swallow of saliva and tap of Chenle’s foot. It’s agitating, grating, but Jisung refuses to give in, deciding that he is more man than animal despite the way his stomach begins to ache.
3. new blogpost! by lovertonic
[hendairy left a comment 1 min ago]: wow this guide is super helpful bc i think my roomie is also a killer u__u thnx bro!!!
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[markly left a comment 0 secs ago]: im gonna kill u donghyuck
funny and fun. killer mark? hot.
4. Drive by dreamlikewater
5. Stretched Hats by Mntsnflrs
6. you belong where i am by mayhems
nice and fun and good. i recommended it over on a discord server, donghyuck was so fun to read in this.
7. star trippin' by ayqn
another masterpiece, but if you can't deal with slow burn, this is probably unbearable for you. just be warned that it isn't completely finshed either, as it is part of a series.
8. the eye of providence by minhyukwithagun (deadlylampshades)
9. in simple terms by mayhems
4. Drive by dreamlikewater
Jisung would follow Chenle through the end of the world if he’d asked, regardless of whether the end of the world was happening or not. And Chenle just cannot stop moving.Chenle is completely and entirely aware that his best friend Jisung is hopelessly in love with him.ah, the chenji bible. it's the greatest chenji work i've come across, or work in general. i have so much love for these guys, and i have so much love for this fic. i went through it quite slow, cause i wanted to savour it as well as my feelings for it.
5. Stretched Hats by Mntsnflrs
"How goes the seduction?”another favourite! i have some posts freaking out about it over in priv/main.
“Ball is life, sadly.”
“Damn, you were rejected for a basketball again?”
“Yeah.”
Renjun looks at him slyly. “It seems you have a type, and that type prefers sports over you.”
6. you belong where i am by mayhems
After a heated argument, Donghyuck finds that he cannot physically be too far away from Mark without falling down flat on his ass. Incidentally, he’s also been in secret-love with Mark for six years and counting. There’s no way this will end well.
nice and fun and good. i recommended it over on a discord server, donghyuck was so fun to read in this.
7. star trippin' by ayqn
After an undisclosed fallout with one of the band members, Donghyuck takes it upon himself to find them a replacement drummer under a time crunch.
Too bad their town's too small of a place for any proper scouting, which leaves them with Mark Lee who's somehow back after walking out of Donghyuck's life two years ago, and who's coincidentally the best drummer Donghyuck's ever had the pleasure to hear play.
8. the eye of providence by minhyukwithagun (deadlylampshades)
fun, especially when jaehyun finds out the depth of taeyong's conspiracy theories. he's so down bad, it's fun to watch the lengths he'll go for his crush.Ah. Alright. Jaehyun understands now. These “Paranormal Society” clowns get a free vacation every week of the year where they hunt for an obviously fake monster, and even in the unlikely event that wendigos do turn out to be real - which they aren’t - they’d actually kill them, thereby vindicating all members of the Society of all accountability. Incredible. Taeyong could quite possibly be running the most ingenious scam of all time. Jaehyun almost finds it genuinely impressive.
But Jaehyun looks up into Taeyong’s honey-brown eyes and oh god, he genuinely believes this doesn’t he, he actually thinks that there’s cannibalistic monsters who lives next to the lake and eats people for breakfast.
“I’d love if you’d come with,” Taeyong says, looking up.
Jaehyun instructs his fluttering heart to shut the fuck up and die.
9. in simple terms by mayhems
After receiving a totally not romantically-charged gift from Mark, Donghyuck decides to finally get answers about what they really are to each other by any means necessary, starting with doing what he does best: psychologically manipulating Mark until he figures out exactly what he wants to know.(Donghyuck might just be crazy. That would be the worst possible outcome, definitely.)
another work by mayhemslost all its milk teeth by bitternotes
“It’s been what?” Eunseok stops in between a puff. “A year?”
“A year and 3 months,” Sungchan answers quietly. He picks at the loose hangnail on his thumb, but his doe eyes do not leave Eunseok’s. “But who’s counting, right?”
jung sungchan flies 10 hours to yearn for song eunseok
hi hi
1. penang school trip
the first time i went out of my country without the company of my family! really delicious... at night, we would run over to the guys' place and eat and drink there, hehe. i lost multiple rounds of uno, but i learnt black jack! when i went back home, i found myself cursing up a storm, i was probably influenced by my friend... oops?
2. doujima
i'm promising to attend only one convention this time! i went over budget with 140/160 dollars worth of items... i didn't account for the jewelry at these places! but i'm pleased with my photocard standee and collectbook. :) i bought with me only 50 dollars worth of cash...
3. 18th birthday!
a milestone! can't believe i'm actually 18, time flies so fast. i can finally open those poipiku links, haha. but i have not yet learnt how to drive, neither have i had a taste of alcohol, despite it already being june... i've been thinking of face revealing over at my twitter, but i'm scared of being doxxed and/or my ance have been quite severe so it's probably not the right time... i dont have any non-lip products either, so i'll be showing my bareface. mm... also, i have to decide on getting a stripe/paypal account. i think ill probably go with stripe, due to the money transfer thingy... i want to get my coin!! also, my sister sponsored me for a birthday gift ^^ i bought the vending machine istj album that ive been eyeing for a while.. i got jeno
4. moving out
due to certain circumstances, i will be moving out from my current house into a four room flat. it'll certainly be a change, due to the decrease in space size. but i quite like the layout of my new room; it's very closed up and cozy. i finally have a proper desk and chair now, so my back is saved!! the only downside is that the house is an hour and a half away from my school, so that'll be a hassel.
the first time i went out of my country without the company of my family! really delicious... at night, we would run over to the guys' place and eat and drink there, hehe. i lost multiple rounds of uno, but i learnt black jack! when i went back home, i found myself cursing up a storm, i was probably influenced by my friend... oops?
2. doujima
i'm promising to attend only one convention this time! i went over budget with 140/160 dollars worth of items... i didn't account for the jewelry at these places! but i'm pleased with my photocard standee and collectbook. :) i bought with me only 50 dollars worth of cash...
3. 18th birthday!
a milestone! can't believe i'm actually 18, time flies so fast. i can finally open those poipiku links, haha. but i have not yet learnt how to drive, neither have i had a taste of alcohol, despite it already being june... i've been thinking of face revealing over at my twitter, but i'm scared of being doxxed and/or my ance have been quite severe so it's probably not the right time... i dont have any non-lip products either, so i'll be showing my bareface. mm... also, i have to decide on getting a stripe/paypal account. i think ill probably go with stripe, due to the money transfer thingy... i want to get my coin!! also, my sister sponsored me for a birthday gift ^^ i bought the vending machine istj album that ive been eyeing for a while.. i got jeno
4. moving out
due to certain circumstances, i will be moving out from my current house into a four room flat. it'll certainly be a change, due to the decrease in space size. but i quite like the layout of my new room; it's very closed up and cozy. i finally have a proper desk and chair now, so my back is saved!! the only downside is that the house is an hour and a half away from my school, so that'll be a hassel.
1. wizard of oz
technicolour
From the moment Chenle stepped through the door, Jisung has been very aware of the blood, the smell of copper so gratifying and deep to his senses, but its not until this very second that Jisung can’t ignore it. He feels Chenle’s pulse as if it is his own, hears every swallow of saliva and tap of Chenle’s foot. It’s agitating, grating, but Jisung refuses to give in, deciding that he is more man than animal despite the way his stomach begins to ache.
hot vampirism. the tension of Jisung's feeding is amazing.
“Yeah,” Jisung admits. “Actually I am, I’m always jealous of you, and I don't really understand why. It's not like I have any reason to feel this way.” He trails his lips further up Chenle’s thigh, kissing and breathing him in before nipping at the skin with his teeth. “Or any right to. You’re my best friend."
omg. it's just plain sexy.
Zhong Chenle. Twenty-five. The first Chinese astronaut to go to space. Also the first to sneak a corned beef sandwich in his pressure suit pocket, which could have very well made him the last Chinese astronaut in space, but Jisung knew it wouldn’t be the case.Zhong Chenle just had a way with people.
just beautiful, intricate writing with beautiful visuals.
june (week 1) releases
this week has really good releases so far, they are all going platinum in my household (room)!! i think you can tell i'm really getting into nct, haha.
may releases
plans
this week has really good releases so far, they are all going platinum in my household (room)!! i think you can tell i'm really getting into nct, haha.
may releases
plans
- pack
- merch ideas
- nctzen for palestine: wayv gmt sticket sheet
- chenji yuri art ^ ^
- oc trading card
- write more.
- learn to drive.
- japanese; renshuu.
introduction
Apr. 8th, 2024 04:11 pmthis is a welcome to my journal!
what is this
this place is mainly for what it is labelled as: a director's cut! basically, if i'm writing a fic of any sort, and i have some scenes lost during editing that i believe are worth viewing, i will dump them here! additionally, other fic related content might be included here, for example: a moodboard of a wip, wips in general, prompts, inspirations, recommendations and more! (i will probably make a LOT of recommendation posts).
other than this, if i so happen to find that i can feature something else than is better displayed here rather than my other social media, i will!
what do you write
nothing much, for now. my current works (2), are orphaned. i'm in a slump as i have no idea what to write about, and am unsure if diving into rpf is good idea, since im getting back into kpop recently. regardless, i want to expand my ao3 writing history, thus this is part of my rebrand to write more! i love anime, so maybe i'll write more beyond my standard shonen fics? also, as a disclaimer, i do write about rarepairs, and i toe the line between crackships and rarepairs. i also have somewhat strict dynamics for my ships, but i don't think you'd necessarily notice unless i write mature fics... additionally, i might want to dive into more gorey and dead dove content, so reader's discretion is advised!
disclaimer
as you can see... i am a grade a yapper, and some of these discretions probably aren't meant to be in a welcome post. this was meant to be kept short... so! i'm new to dreamwidth/livejournal, the closest experience to a blog system i have is tumblr, and even then i can't keep organised and i barely post... i hope you can be patient with me as i navigate this.
what is this
this place is mainly for what it is labelled as: a director's cut! basically, if i'm writing a fic of any sort, and i have some scenes lost during editing that i believe are worth viewing, i will dump them here! additionally, other fic related content might be included here, for example: a moodboard of a wip, wips in general, prompts, inspirations, recommendations and more! (i will probably make a LOT of recommendation posts).
other than this, if i so happen to find that i can feature something else than is better displayed here rather than my other social media, i will!
what do you write
nothing much, for now. my current works (2), are orphaned. i'm in a slump as i have no idea what to write about, and am unsure if diving into rpf is good idea, since im getting back into kpop recently. regardless, i want to expand my ao3 writing history, thus this is part of my rebrand to write more! i love anime, so maybe i'll write more beyond my standard shonen fics? also, as a disclaimer, i do write about rarepairs, and i toe the line between crackships and rarepairs. i also have somewhat strict dynamics for my ships, but i don't think you'd necessarily notice unless i write mature fics... additionally, i might want to dive into more gorey and dead dove content, so reader's discretion is advised!
disclaimer
as you can see... i am a grade a yapper, and some of these discretions probably aren't meant to be in a welcome post. this was meant to be kept short... so! i'm new to dreamwidth/livejournal, the closest experience to a blog system i have is tumblr, and even then i can't keep organised and i barely post... i hope you can be patient with me as i navigate this.
